At my best

YET? I hope I am well on my way there. It is a lifetime endeavor and takes great energy to move toward what one may consider BEST.  I am a healthy happy character as most of us are in some way. I take the time to do what I do best often, and also not often enough. I also have moments where I give  in to less than my best in the presence of others. That does not sit well with me. Giving up my best for another's comfort or demands is becoming less and less the way I want to live now. I watch and wait and see where this is going to go and if it suits me, then with my very best intentions I set out again. How about you, what are you BEST at and ARE you the best you deserve to be? I hope we are I sure am giving it my all. All the BEST to you and me both now!

Death begins in the COLON

I learned that as a young Naturopath and it stuck. The colon is where feelings of guilt and shame reside and if they are present they will take down the host. It is true. It took along time to weed through the parts of my life that promoted guilt and shame and air them out completely. It is OUTING at it's highest calling.  Abortion and rape were the two most difficult for me. Others I have taught wellness to have different issues, parenting, addiction, abuse, they are at the top of the list. Abandonment was one of mine and I see it in many lives, that fear of being totally left alone again. Other issues came to the surface quickly and cleared just as fast. Thank God we don't all have to do all of the work here. I have done my portion and you will be called to do your part equally. When we re-view, we know which parts make us feel sick. Sick is the beginning of death here. The colon is the beginning of sick in the body. Shame and guilt deserve your attention, and if you release them to the light and shine the truth on all you have done, thought, word and deed, you will live happily and with great health and energy for as long as you desire. Then when you are ready, your angel will take you home. It is a great gift to know that freewill still has great power and anytime I want to choose health, happiness and yes, even horses, I can and do!

Look up.....rainbows are everywhere!

As we weather the storms in our world we sometimes get wet, some even get flooded or wind whipped. Like a ship anchored in one place during a great gale you think you are on your own for in the storms you can not see any one else.  It depends on the security of your feelings and the self love that is the strongest bond as to the outcome. I have endured, beatings of all kind and words designed as curses that shred a human heart, the worst of it was as a child. The stuff of my adulthood is nothing really in comparison to that. Children are innocent and do not ever deserve the beatings of any adult, on any level, for any reason, the less, the lack, the loss, that occurs from a childhood like that can take a very long time to heal. Trust comes back slowly and only in the company of others who trust themselves. Looking up is my job, my life here. I am a Sagittarius and on the feet and legs of a horse I look high into the sky and raise my bow and shoot my arrow of truth. I do that for a job and it helps a lot of people. It is always accurate. Luckily for me,  I also see the comings from there. It first shows in the form of a rainbow. It is the bridge to the heavens. It is the memory of a promise of more than this. Last week there were two on my land. I posted them on my facebook page so others could share the magic! Look up now, rainbows are in the sky and the bridge has been reconnected and we are about to receive guests!

Salvage what has value, the rest will find it's way

I have been here over and over and over, each time amazing. Prime Creator has created this outpost for soul development and that includes our Earth Mother Gaia. She is raising her vibration just as we are. Being plundered, raped, pillaged, ridden rough shod over, well that has been a very real part of our experience. We are her and she is us, ONE energy on this blue planet. I have been told now, that there is NO TIME left, and to salvage all that I can. Healing our world, cleaning up the mess, taking total responsibility for it all, and using my energy to the best of my ability and for the highest good, is the final act in this long running play. When our alien ancestors return to our world, I want them to see that we were worthy, we were conscious of right, of love, of approval. And that this experiment in the Creation Story was a complete success! Salvage operation to begin NOW.

Knowing you are loved

Under stress we are loved. Under sad, mad or lost, we are loved. It is the inner child within that sometimes forgets that. The higher self stands quietly and continues to remind of  us of that truth, although much of the time we can not hear. So just for today, let yourself be loved. What does that look like? For many it has  no regular place in their life. It gets mixed up with ego and emotion, then throw in less, lack and loss and WOW. It loses it's footing in the mayhem. I have spent lifetimes learning to remember this. Love is an action, a verb. It is the energy of a spirit in motion doing that which it came to do. Taking challenges and detours in stride is a gift that it supports here. I see what love can do all of the time, it heals the sick and it restores the soul and it is an awesome focus for all we do. So today, be loved, CUZ YOU ARE!

Loyal old friends

My Zion dog was as loyal and loving as I could ask for. When he departed last week I lost that feeling of what a loyal friend is really like as that loyal energy floated away. A couple of days later when the tears stopped and I looked around, everyone was gone.  Zion  never  failed to be present, he always wanted to play even in the end, and he never wished I was someone or some way other than me. I will look for that attribute in myself and others now. Look...... Who are you a loyal loving friend to? For me to have Zion in my life for so many years, I had to believe in loyalty and live that way too. He reflected the giant energy I have in my heart, loyal to the end to a life here and a love of humanity  and the Earth mother, that will never ever fade! How about you! Did you keep your vows, follow through on your promises or did that loyal loving part of you fade away?????? Running down the road, never solved the love and loyalty debacle, and not once did Zion take off down the road! A loyal friend to the end!  Maybe humans should be more like dogs, or horses for that matter. Think about this, I sure am.

new moon new life new YOU!

Sink in deep now, the roots of you and your structure which is your home, career and family are ready and have patiently waited for you to hook up fully. Our families need you! Our Earth needs you! Our universe sent you here to succeed, prosper and be fruitful! Trees need roots, today is ROOTS day, they go down deep in the dark of the new moon lack of light. Close your eyes, see your dragon tail from your  tailbone, your two feet if you have them and send your life force, your love light, your sense of purpose and your willing intention into the heart of our world!! To the light within!! We need anchored people now, the winds of change are blowing and only those who hold steady will survive and thrive.  New MOON magical, mystical, feminine and very powerful. Thank you for the seasons, the reasons and the new opportunities to try again.

a vision for us all now

Watching auras, is inspiring, enlightening, and exhausting. I have done that for lifetimes and it is my gift. I know what works and how you respond to that and I know how to stop something too. When your energy is disharmonic or darker than you like it, it is obvious to others more often then you know. I watch so much of this that being alone sometimes is my only saving grace. I am a part of the generation of exposure, the transparent ones who are crystalline. In this world of toxins it is a challenge to remain sparkly. My next purchase will be the video camera, that you can see your own energy in. The birth of the Angel Hawk Visions is now and this is going to be something really fun! I want you to know how much control you really have and what to do to upgrade your own experience. I will let you know when it is time to come over and be filmed.

A Master Key - HOPE

I have been a gatekeeper and a keyholder. I have one key given to me for safe keeping. It is the key to the HOPE chest. It is a treasure chest of potential and a brighter day and tomorrow. I love HOPE, it floats my boat. It is the part of gambling that I cherish, the never ending story of patience, focus, anticipation and success. I see hope in the eyes of my clients and those who hold that energy close and use it, get what they hope for every single time. Doubt stops energy like a steel door. It is everywhere, lessons abound with that energy. I never doubt myself or anyone else. I hope the best, the soonest, the most magnificent outcome for myself, and the everyone else all the time. I was told today that the  HOPE key that hangs around my neck and on my front window too, is ready to be inserted and turned in the lock of the HOPE chest I know exists. I shall do that now, I have waited lifetimes for this gift to be revealed to our world and I am glad I stayed to get the job done. HOPE you are too.

A test drive

You have done it with a car, a bike and yes, with relationships too. Over and over people test one another. We look to see if it goes together smoothly. If it does, there is the second and third call, if not, it diminishes into nothing but a memory. I watch people do this with lifestyle choices, food, alcohol, and drugs are at the top of the list. It is funny how far we can go on a test drive before the spirit and it's host body start throwing anxiety out there like an anchor with it's loud and powerful energy. It tries to stop you cold, but if you push beyond and drag the anchor, the last stop comes, it is the heart. Implosion or explosion, the heart is the home of your soul, with it strong and smooth, like that desire for the test drive's outcome, you will be invited to stay and enjoy your human experience. Anything less, well, you tell me how that is going for you. Sit quietly with your heart today. Listen to all it tells you, draw it, sing it, say it out loud into your auric field. It is the best guide you have here and learning how it should work and can work, is your life's work and your goal. Heartfelt responses to life will heal our world and our future here will be assured. Any less ??? Well you decide.

Authenticity - are you at home in your own skin?

So many are not yet. Some try on other's boots or lives for awhile but after a little time it simply is not a fit. How do you tell?? The less, the lack, the loss of truth, the smile and the comfort one feels around someone authentic. The ease and grace that come with that fit. I have experienced it. There is such joy in being open, transparent and passionate! Look in the mirror and decide which part of you is  really you. I saw black biker boots once long ago and wished they were brown, soft, beat up cowboy boots instead. That's how you know! Hang in there, we all will get this figured out soon, very very soon.

no such thing as TIME left

I marvel at the colossal waste of time, or what is left of that perspective. It is not real, yet in our world it is very relevant. Eternal is real to me, understanding that is paramount. Living with the present which includes time, in a linear fashion, is one of our huge lessons here. Wasting resources, including time, seems to be an addiction for many and it is stopping progress. Time is a gift, it is the measurement of your worth and value here. I can do something in the wink of an eye, in no time at all, that is fantastic. What have you created with time??? Fast or slow, productive or non?  My brother and sister in law, took their time to make an amazing marriage. My career as a Naturopathic Physician took time to learn and grow into something I love to share. My time and yours spent on our kids, our families and ourselves in love and laughter, the most fruitful time spent of all. Time taken to honor, adore and celebrate, well spent too!! In the last few minutes earth has in this dimension which includes time, spend your time here well, even better then that and you will love the next step into eternity. Timeless advice.

Redemption cowboys

That was a program I started last fall. It offered addicts a chance to feel the power and balance that comes from bareback riding on my horses. It was wonderful. It made my heart sing. I know that addiction is everywhere, it is a way of creating stability. It is finding the ONE thing someone thinks works and that they can count on, since everything else up to that point has failed. Family, community, individual expression, health, happiness, support, nothing to addict yourself to since it was not there. It is something to see. The power of addiction is so fierce and I love the energy that could be channeled into something helpful and loving. If you have the willingness to take your addiction to a place of power and glory and true purpose, let us know. We still ride here and would love you to join us! Hawk's Ridge Ranch and Redemption Cowboys are here to stay! 

Who are we?

Descended from heaven to a realm where freewill is the lesson and the gift, and sometimes the hardest challenge we endure. As I kid, I wanted someone to care about me all of the time. That was not how it went at our house, drama ruled and we were the recipients of that drama which came from the freewill of my Mother. It made me brave and scared all at the same time. I would venture out with heart of a lion and we had grand adventures as kids. My friends were my lifeline and I cherished them, I still do. No challenge there just love. My home was never stable, that was a challenge. I decided to fix that first, and I do a stable loving beautiful home. My relationships with men were stressed. I see in them  as the  two human Fathers I knew, the one who died, the one who stayed but never spoke, still doesn't at 84. Neither present in my life, so I turned to the Father of us all and that worked perfectly for me.  I had to become my own human Father in seeking balance and harmony. I am fierce that way. I choose to do my own work and no man has ever out worked me. It has taken my freewill brain years to analyze this and finally let it all go now. Allow, align and appreciate is how it landed. That is what the Universe tells me about who I am and how I will flourish here. So today, in honor of who I am, Mother and Father, I will align with Nature and the Children of our planet. They are the innocents and they need me and I need them.  They are why I am here. Nothing less will do, and the purpose we bring with us in our hearts will align with others of like mind and like spirit and with that alignment, we will appreciate one another and get this thing done now. WHO are you? First allow yourself to know yourself fully in the light of truth and clarity, then decide where and with whom alignment would fit perfectly, then once you have decided with your freewill, APPRECIATE IT, THAT IS THE ONLY WAY IT WILL STAY AND GROW! Anything less will slip away and you may never get another chance like this!

What a Shaman See's In a Mental Hospital

What a Shaman See's In a Mental Hospital This is an interesting article for those who are looking to understand more.

Rare jewels in humanity-Indigos!

Extraordinary, so different and fresh. Kids especially have this quality now. Adults called Indigos were the first to demonstrate it. Our history had been programming the people with a cookie cutter mentality that caused terrible fear and pain. People started to think to that to fit in was the only way and cults were formed to capitalize on this. If the humans could be terrorized and tamed, they could be very useful and productive to a select few. If the humans remained free and wild there would be none of that. Schools, groups of people, churches all got in on it. They said if you join  US and follow our ways,  we will keep you safe. You will be ONE of us. Hitler said that, the KKK said it too, so did the Christians, and so did the Politicians. When more controls were needed medicine was changed to drugs, and that was used too. Legal and illegal sales soared!  Media was the fastest growing addiction, programming was their gig and they actually said it out loud and they became masters at it. Keeping you under control by fabricating stories and embellishing them, then presenting them as true. Then the Universe said, this is a freewill world, the design here is ours, not the little people with the heart to dictate to another. So Indigos were sent. It began over a hundred years ago, just as the end of the Mayan Calendar began. If you are one of the rare jewels sent to Earth to be wild and free and help us, let us know. The system is busting and we are all here now for the New Age of real love, and community with abundance for all. With everyone awake and extraordinary this should be incredible. Thank you Creator for the Indigo revolution of love and light, for such an awesome gift as been prayed for and is now here for us all to be free again.

FAITH, HOPE AND LOVE

Honoring those things as the truth of your existence here is how we heal our life, our body, our relationships and ultimately this world of ours. Nothing less can or will do. If you love yourself you will walk in truth and light. If you hope for good and right and honest, it will be there. If your faith in the long haul of human life shows you commitment and integrity, and all that it offers it will result in growth and communion. It will be that way. I open my heart, my home, and my work to lots of people, some return the gift. For those I am so grateful. For the ones who take more than they give, you have an account open and you will be accountable. The universe keeps track of the details. I simply move on and begin again.

the dawn of the solstice

Saturday is the summer solstice and honoring the warmth, the growth and the opportunities we are growing is the way to honor this day. The timing of light could not come a minute too soon. The world has asked for the light of a new day, a new way and this is it. Write what you want and put in the light, write the things you never need again and burn them in your solstice campfire. It really is a new day! Ours to do with whatever we choose, choose well! Namaste'

no blame, no excuses

but, but, but......stop now with that. It is what you have created, YOU create your reality. Success - YOURS. Health-YOURS. Commitment-YOURS. or the opposite, you decide. Looking for a reason for what you say or do or become, is MOOT. YOU become YOU. NOT ME - YOU. You can love me, emulate me, even admire me, but you will never be me, nor would or should you want to. YOU are perfectly YOU, and that is good enough and the only one to blame is YOU.

Rapid Awakening

It is coming quickly now, the memories dulled by human existence. There are those memories that connect you to Creator and divine purpose. No more disappearing acts. People everywhere have had the pail of cold water thrown in their face and are sputtering and saying what's up?? How did I get here, how long was I bombed, or asleep or on the run or unconscious? I laugh out loud every time another one gets their bell rung with light and love and unlimited potential staring them in their face. You are only able to absorb the light when you get out of the dark and stand in it fully. Truth is transparent. Love is working the controls, it always did. We were just too drunk to see it. No more exclusions or drama now, just laugh and say, wow, glad I stayed, this is going to be something special! We are all worthy, own it, love it, give in to it. No competitions, no wars, no being left out or left behind. Community. Unity for us all!

Immune system over ride

You can go with the flow, paddle upstream or try to divert the river. Those are the only options available with energy. Your immune system is energetic. It flows freely from within, and responds to three things constantly. Your emotions are 1/3, so stress takes up a lot of that energy if it is present. Your DNA, or inherited traits. Down the lineage comes the strengths and weaknesses of family structure.  When they have happy, healthy, strong, loving traits, so do you. If not, there are solutions. Finally the world in which we interact. If my mind is disharmonic or my mood toxic, I will not convert anything toxic to harmonic within. It causes a system over ride. Many turn to drugs to assist. I turn to nature. It is my life and my work. As a Naturopathic Physician, I share my knowledge and experience with others in how to avoid system over rides and how to deal with them when they appear. I do  not ever need a vaccination to impair a perfectly good immune system and response. I need a happy healthy loving life, with clean fresh water, organic non-gmo food, sleep, sunshine and clean air. I also need a  loving connection to all things, so that when I do need support it is right there where it can hold me while I rearrange some things. Perfect, and divine in everyway!

Loyal friend

I have been blessed again and again with the loyal companionship of dogs. I have had Tucker, Shadow, Cody, Cooper, Zion and Rain, and now I have Lady and Logan. They come and stay for awhile, their love is unconditional and the wagging tail never stops. They want to play, and cuddle and show me how cool their tricks are with balls and sticks and even little tiny rocks. They herd my herd  of horses and make my life so easy.  They guard my chicks and play with my kitties and even my raccoon. They protect my land and all it has on it, including my heart. They make my heart open and unconditional. Yesterday my 13 yr old German Shepherd woke up ready to fly to the Rainbow bridge.  Legs that had carried him all around this ranch had folded and would not move here any more. I saw wings forming on his giant black back, and his soft eyes said, mom I have to go now. My amazing veterinarian, Dale Magnusson was coming to assist at the end of the day. As the time approached so did the humans that love me unconditionally as well. I looked up and saw the sad, soft hearts of my friends, my co workers, and my family. They came to honor the loyal companion that had graced all of our lives. Then he was gone. As we carried him to his grave, the horses lined up in honor of their old friend, and when I let them out afterwards I am sure they went to site and danced with him in spirit.  I looked this morning to see him on the cool bathroom floor, and it was empty, yet he was still there. Thank you Zion for your loyalty, beauty and humor and the power you had and shared with a your peaceful manner and loving heart. You are my forever friend and when I look up I know I will see you watching over us always. Godspeed old boy, see you again. I will bring the ball!!

Reliable or liable?

I have had many pets and two kids, I was reliable for them. I was there with food and love and presence. When I said something, I did it. Period. I know that kids and pups get dumped on the side of life all of the time, my pups did. I have seen it again and again. Trusting that someone is reliable takes courage, real guts. After many let downs, you sometimes need to learn to rely only on yourself. That's where the higher self can be of service. Helping yourself good, having angels and guides, much easier and more reliable. Creator sees to our needs and meets us at many levels. Thank you Creator for your reliability, I can and do always trust you. The others, well, that's not my story, it's theirs, looking along the side of the road, the critters and kids they dumped along the way. Tough stuff, but once someone desires to be trustworthy it too, will be fixed and not a minute before.

WEIGHT LOSS SUCCESS

When we measure the success of health, happiness and recovery by weight loss, are we on the right track? Yes, we are. The body is designed to carry only a specific amount of weight. Try carrying a bag of rocks with you today.  It is specifically programmed in the pituitary gland. How do we over ride that programming? Toxic food, air, water and words. Balance and understanding, knowledge and desire all fix that. I was engaged once to a guy who was HEAVY for 18 years. Addicted to many things that were part of the toxic  load added in too. As a gift, I had his teeth cleaned completely, all the amalgam (mercury) fillings removed and every single tooth properly repaired. In a very short time, all the extra weight he had carried for so long, melted away. He facebook posted that revelation with great joy and pride. I believe we all deserve to know the truth, it will set us free. I love the human design, and have spent lifetimes teaching it to others. The weight loss part gets me the grand prize everytime! People know what they like and what feels and looks good. Success comes quickly when you have all the data and decide it is time now to be healthy and LIGHT!
 Michael David Vangsness - you are so welcome, enjoy your new body!

SAY what you want and need

And use your words, and your inside voice please. I tell the riders at the ranch that they are to use their inside voices around the horses. Hollering is only for an alert that needs attention and support, only in an emergency. I have always known that and required it in my life. Many people are raised to use their voices in a loud and abusive way, that is what they lived with and then it became a part of their life. Children who are in loud and emergency lives are the first to be screamers and should be heard. They are not even aware of how loud or nasty or hurtful their words are and ultimately what it will produce. It is Not helpful or necessary to hurl fireballs that words are, when lit up.  It goes the same for silence as well. The polarity is just as abusive. So for today, say out loud in the most beautiful and graceful voice, what you want. Nothing less will manifest. Period! Ask God, for in the beginning there was the WORD! And as far as I know, that is still true today. Remember for in the END, which is now by the way, you will be justified by your words or condemned by them, read Matthew 12: 36 and 37. Then offer with words,your highest hopes, wishes and dreams, and I will too. Magic and manifestation began with ONE GOOD WORD! I for one am ready for more good words in my life!

Everyone likes to In-cluded!

We are humans and we embody amazing energy. Including others in your life, your days and yes, even your nights, makes us healthier and happier too. Exclusions caused by the Exclusive only serve to injure those who feel left out and unloved. It is the antithesis of love. Love has no boundaries, no max limits, and shall remain unconditional as Creator made it. Use this wonderful energy to become inclusive! The more the merrier and the lighter the load!!! Welcome one another in to your hearts, your lives and our world will be a better place!

Friends and Family, Framily huh?

I had a weekend with both and LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. I know that who and how we are is a reflection of me and I learn something new all the time about myself. I have a hard time with saying no, I do not want to hear it and rarely say it. BOUNDARIES. I have learned that when I set some for myself I feel a little safer and little better understood. That has become a real blessing in my life. This weekend gave me a chance to exercise my new skill. It was amazing. It was simply finding the ground on which I was solid and standing on it with my smile and my truth. This is what I know works for me and sharing that gave everyone comfort in knowing where on my ground they fit. Thank you friends and family, you are a real gift and I am glad to have you all in my life! Namaste'

Seeing is believing

Third eye sight is where we really see. It is a beautiful full energy system in so few humans here that the physical eyes are all that is left to see with. That is not the original and amazing design. I am posting a great video for you to watch and share, this explains as well as I can. Enjoy!

[SHOCKING NEWS] The Pineal Gland - The Greatest Cover Up In History

e-motion

It is the flow of the energy from you to us. It filters through you and your ideas, intentions and experiences, along with ego and intellect. It can flow pure and fresh and highly energized. I love that. It can also appear thick and sticky and full of old stuck junk. I need water to clear my e-motion. I am full fire as a Sag sun and moon. I am hot, full of life and animated by nature. If I sing, dance, laugh out loud, share and create word pictures that inspire, I emote what I love and has benefit for me. WHEN I am stuck, thick, or still too long, I become silent and withdraw. I then head for the water to rinse it clear again.  Program your water today under the extra light of the Sag full moon, ask it to purify your thoughts, your words and your deeds. Speak your truth and share your enthusiasm. If you are thick with the ick of the old stuck, take a moment to wash yourself in and out, use water and ask for help, with the light of love as your healer. Love is a verb, use it and emote it and we will be just fine!

Tired at the end of the day?

I am spent. Totally spent and sleep comes easily. I love my life here on the ranch. Being outside, at the barn or at the beach or on a horse, or skiing across the field all use my energy. At the end of my days, I need to recharge and I do. I know that sleeping soundly for 8 hours is key to my health, both mental and physical. I really know that my spiritual growth comes in my dreams and I love that time out of human life and into a heavenly place. If you are not sleeping, come and see me, we have lots of help for those whose 8 hours of dreaming is interrupted or inconsistent. Dream your life, then live it.

Bored?

The boredom of the human race and the distractions used to compensate for that boredom are incredibly creative and I am always amazed. Drinking, drugging, cheating, stealing, making up stories, all cuz someone is simply bored with their life. I find church boring. I always have. I do not find Christ or Mother Mary or the Creator boring at all. I find them and what they teach incredibly inspiring. So why would I go to church if I am so bored there? I normally do not. Holidays, and special occasions, or good good music can get me in, a super inspired speaker can keep my attention . Are you needing an upgrade in your life because the boredom gets you in to trouble. Kids who are bored get into trouble a lot. Parents who are boring or bored, start that particular problem. What inspires you to get your body moving, your mind clicking and popping and your heart racing???? Think about it, it is the difference between boredom and bounty - you can manifest either abundantly. YOU CHOOSE!

Mixed Messages

In talking about perception, it is the view of the viewer that is the message received. I receive messages on my receiver in a very different way from others. So sometimes I just ask the sender, what do you mean, really?? It is funny that the answer when I can't understand the message is no clearer then the first message. I sat quietly with that for a moment and realized how haywire our world is. Humans are crossing wires again and again. It comes from a style of life, communication and the lack of commitment to the highest good. It will be interesting to see how it all plays out. When I am confused, I ask the Creator first, the clarity of the situation comes in the meditation of mind and heart and with that, I can carry on for the Highest good of me, you and the whole. Seems like a good choice. I like clear and peaceful messages the best, I always have.

The view from here is amazing

Please come and join me if you want to. I have seen energy my whole life. It comes in the form of color and vibration and even designs, called sacred geometry. It tell me much about a current state of affairs. I see auras, broken links, gaping holes, dripping venom, sucking tentacles, and emptiness. People in the light of love and acceptance, under the big spotlight of the Omnipotent, reveal all. It is something! I use this gift in my work to help those who request my services. I use it in my life to assist or avoid certain people and issues. I choose carefully which colors, designs and geometry I allow. In the allowance state I am creating, and am fully aware and present in the doing so. Then I align myself with the hopes, dreams and wishes that I have allowed. Once they are firmly in place, I simply enjoy and appreciate them all. My life is a wonderful example of how that all works, it is harmonic, beautiful, healthy and MINE! Use your energy to your highest good, we are all watching!! If yours looks like fun, we may even share it with you.

Parents and Promises

When a child is conceived there is a promise put into the air that they will be nurtured, protected and nourished here, cherished really. That is what a soul is attracted to and ultimately becomes attached to. It is the broken promises that are hurting our children. The sadness, and loss and resulting behaviors of the non-listening, the non-present and ultimately non-loving parent. I will be there for you is what they heard in heaven before  they descended, then when the embodied everyone soon after took off or started partying. Kids left to their own are lost and lonely and become self-destructive. Period. It takes the presence of a loving parent to show a child the way, the how and the can do's. Today I am celebrating my step father's birthday, he stepped in and stepped up when my male parent abandoned us by dying very very young. My stepfather took on a role, that as I look back now was, heroic in every way. It was hard, painful and dramatic almost all the time, but he stayed the course, took care of our life here and did the best he could. I honor that today on his 84th birthday, thank you dad for your strength, courage and mostly your presence, although challenging, you won!! You made a promise and you kept it. In the light of your strength, we, the four kids you supported all the years, won too! The blessing of family is the greatest blessing of all!! The legacy is full on in my family and my kids and their kids will benefit dramatically from this kept promise, the love their grandpa and he has always loved them too!

Care full consideration

I try to be care full. I try to consider all the aspects presented and not. I am not so good with the silent treatment or the ditch and run thing, those are just childish and hurtful games that people play with one another. I know we have spent our lifetime immersed in drama, it started with the TV and radio that bombarded our eyes and ears with such foolishness. Then when we became what we saw and heard, we fell apart. Humans are falling apart at a very high rate, from autism to alcoholism, the hypersensitivity to this world and the truth she shares is epidemic. In an effort to stabilize, be more care-full. Care about your world, the people in it and the one you walk on. Do not do or say anything at all today that you would not done or spoken to you. Don't drop your cigarette butt on her face, curse at a slow driver, take what is not yours even if you think it is justified, or snap or growl. Do not run away from her beauty and her power, but care fully look her in the eye, our Earth and her children will only heal and flourish if we are very very care full. Decide what you care about and DO IT! Remember, women and children first, they are precious and the legacy of this world depends on them so it depends on YOU!

Fight or Flight, why are you addicted to either of these?

Alcohol, drugs, nicotine, sugar, disappearing and being unaccountable, sex, the need for speed, these are some of the second chakra lessons. When a human becomes stressed they have one of  two choices to make. Stay there and run the addiction road again and let the stress rule or they can allow the heart to process the situation, by asking  three questions. Is this in my highest good, is this in the highest good of the others involved and is this for the highest good of everyone and everything here on earth????
I know the second chakra lessons of fight or flight well, they were hard earned and well learned by me. I know when I feel the adrenaline pumping that I am there, and choices will need to be made, whether I stay for the buzz or move up the ladder to my heart's desire. I love the gamble and risking things like going all in, is a part of my life here. I am willing and play to win or lose I still want to play. At the end of the day though, I come home, I always have and always will. I never leave a mess for someone else, I know that I am the one who is accountable, today and forever. Let's all look at the lessons we are learning and finish them now, our world deserves more and I for one am willing to go all in for the Highest Good of ALL! ARE YOU??????

You will be required to finish what you start

If not here and now, soon enough. I see people using the delete button thinking that the issue is handled because they choose not to answer. What you put out there is YOURS and your responsibility to complete. It does not simply disappear because you wish it would, YOU must choose it to, with your effort and understanding. That is what mercy, grace and forgiveness are for. Pretending things did not happen or do not exist simply prolongs the circumstances and with it, the lessons. Look at your life, your health, your relationships, your home - how much unfinished work is there?????  In the state of grace, a wonderful place to be, take a deep breath and reveal that to yourself which needs to be accomplished first. THEN begin by forgiving yourself  and moving toward the project. I know it works, it is how our world has survived. Those who complete their lives here, move peacefully into their eternal home again. Those who not, return here to finish it up, karmic looping is still the option many choose. Choose something new and fresh now for your life, as soon as you clean up your past. Freewill, ain't it grand!!

All good

WHETHER OR WEATHER, THE CHANGES IN THE AIR ARE ALWAYS GOOD. Change is the only thing for certain here on Earth. It simply does not remain the same ever, that is not our design. Learning to go with the flow, the weather, the seasons, the winds of change bring us new life, and adventures. Learning to surf or fly or even just ride on the bareback of a horse teaches you how to go with flow. It is the heart of the human that holds the course steady. When the wind blows and the storm brews, smile and say thank to the Creator of the wind and know that when it dies down again there will be something fresh to enjoy!!

carry on

only that which serves you now. Leave the rest to someone else for it theirs not yours to carry. I follow that in my life, trying not to put my nose in another's business without their request. I remember in the days of my  early education of Naturopathy, and the excitement and the willing spirit I had. I wanted everyone to know what I knew. I learned very quickly that is not how to live. I am here to carry my own weight, not the health issues of those not ready or interested in what I think is FOR THEIR BEST INTEREST. That would be my ego going in front of my heart. I choose to work using heart first. It is the most valuable and sustaining for me. Invited I may participate, told or sold or even just poked, I choose to answer to no man, only Creator. In the end there will be the ONE who I answer to and I will be there carrying my load, ready for honest and open discussion. How about you, are you carrying your own weight or are you busy with issues of others so you do not have to look in your own mirror and take responsibility for your own life now? You decide what you can carry and carry on. It is a good life here and your full attention should be you on you, and of course, your children too, they are yours to carry when they are young!!

from the passed/past

Sometimes circumstances transport me from the present to the passed/past. It can happen in a instant. One minute I am present, enjoying my life and then a word, a look, a smell, a memory, grabs a hold of my attention and I get transported. I have become conscious enough now to know that when it happens that I should look at it, remain calm and remember, then bring it forward in to the correct context. I learn constantly, my memory serves me that way. Those who have passed away also show up that way.  To remember them and their words in my life shows me so much. There is such learning in remembering, I try very hard not to repeat mist-takes, but I must allow my memories to re-mind me first what that was and how that occurred. Use your memory to support the present, ask to remember all the truth, all the details, so you do not have to repeat the learning. I watch those who get in the rut of denial, who block it, who drank it away, raged it away or buried it so deep that it will take a mammoth desire to uncover it and air it out. It is the way we learn, old lessons offer so much strength, like the rings of the tree, making us who we are without distortion, straight, strong and growing upward Regression work has helped me, done in hypnosis, painless and healing. Allow, align and appreciate, we will all benefit.

Paying attention

So I said, would like to hear what I wrote today? Answer back..... sure,     then continuing to do whatever it was. Not looking up or listening on any level was the next phase, and then came the SILENCE. So loud it shook the windows, the disrespect, the less, the lack  and the loss of an opportunity to follow through with a commitment and simply not doing it. After a little while, there came the questioning look. The silence had spoken the truth. I laughed out loud and said, how many times did a parent do that to you? Say out loud, sure I want to listen to you and then tune you out by NOT LISTENING and just continuing to do whatever they were doing? People wonder why they are not heard, it is because they are not listening. Pretending to, but just not. The world speaks to us, loud and clear. My animals tell me everything about my life, I watch and listen,  my choices and me as a human. I meditate so that skill of listening is honed like a very sharp knife. It makes me happy to know that I can see much, and far, being the Hawk and the Horse here in this lifetime teach me so much. Now I am able hear too, because I practiced and made it my truth. In my practice to listen is to learn how to help you. so WHEN I SAY SURE, YOU WILL GET MY FULL ATTENTION, How about you are you listening?????

Support each other in the recovery process

I have learned much lately about addiction. I am grateful for the lessons as they are an add on for me. In the loss that results from the single minded pursuit of something there comes the ends, the bottoms and the empties. Empty bottles, vials, hearts, relationships and lives. Empty checkbooks and empty beds. This is a lonely lesson and when fully learned, the recovery process becomes the best part of the whole experience. The Creator rejoices when a lost lamb is found. Finding ourselves now is a great and joyous celebration. I look into the eyes of the sick and tired, and share my giant Sagittarius zest for life. I smile, and teach and cheerlead in my job and I am very happy with that work. It came from my recovery from IC, the bladder disease I had back in the 80's. It was a lesson of loss and pain that changed my path, my view and my life here forever. As you recover now, support one another. Create your joyful supportive community with the can-do approach. We are not here to be perfect and that is OK, we are trying and that is good enough!!!

With in the structure of time and light

That's us here now. STRUCTURE. It the place where spirit takes on a body, a living, breathing, pulsing structure. Then we work through that structure to become once again light. The filters, the barriers, the challenges, those are the game. I call it the maze. We feel our way through using our 6 senses, with impaired extra senses, that could easily end the game of maze, or structure if we knew this and how to apply it.
I had a group of High school kids here yesterday to ride horses. Bareback, eyes shut, with the themes of balance, trust, harmony and POWER! Some got it. Some didn't even try. The structure is the fun part. It is the adventure, it receives inspiration, illumination, energy and most important of all, LOVE. WITH LOVE, all bets are off and the being begins to ascend, or fly if that is how you see it. On the wings of love, light and laughter, with in the structure of time and light, let's see where our joy is and allow it now to heal us and our world. GAME ON! Horses do it for me, what inspires you within this world of the structure of time and light???

Date

I have not been on a date in many years. I saw a comedian who said it was the riskiest thing a woman can do, so why would we even go? I think that is true. Woman are internal energy generators. WE CREATE homes and babies and cook meals and offer comfort and security. Men are the ones who project their energy into the outer realms naturally and easily. They are wonderful at adventures of all kinds, including dates, the greatest adventure of all. I have heard my girls say they have been on many dates with their partners and it is a worthy endeavor, filled with joy and love and the planning by their partner warms their hearts and pumps up their tires~!!! Think about your worth, I am thinking about mine. Let's have adventure with one another worthy of fun, laughter, excitement and best and most awesome of all, LOVE!

Just for today

That is my choice these days, just living for TODAY. I have to let go of my past/passed and stay firmly in my present to be the best I can be. I can not nor will I think about the tomorrows of forever, for that is the never ending story of worry and wait. I told an old boyfriend I WANTED TO AND WOULD BE MARRIED.  Then I decided to marry myself instead of another person first. For now that is the best I can do, and being fully loved by me has been a consistent challenge. Now I got that handled!! Being authentic, happy, helpful and alive is what I am currently working with. How about your TODAY????? Who are you and how are you going to get it  done?? One day at a time, is all we have, make it the very very best you can.