Friday, December 30, 2011

Today is a 10 day - fresh start-higher level

I love numerology, God's Math is for everyone. In geometry, in astrology, in numerology, in music and on and on. The music of a new song is being heard. I believe the younger ears are more tuned into it than the old ears, plugged up with whatever. I think that's why in the 60's music got louder, the drumming needed to be a part of it.

I ask now to hear the whole new song of this time on Earth. The kids will sing for us. The Earth will respond to it. Like a snake to the charmer, which by the way is a good thing.

Let down the barriers and blockages that hold you in suspension and isolation. See them melting and flowing away from you. Find the song that you can hear and listen to it over and over, I love the Hallelujah song by Leonard Cohen. It shakes me up, makes me sing and shifts me to a higher plane. On a 10 day I look for another fresh song and fresh start.

In honor of 25,000 years of darkness and duality slipping away to the memory of legend and the celebration, that despite the odds being against it, we are still here. No nukes, no disasters we couldn't survive.

Many of us have undergone changes so dramatic that they would have taken thousands of years of evolution to complete before now. With the light and energy here now, that changes the playing field all together. Use the new field. Find your song. Today is the day to start fresh, speak your truth to those who long to hear it, walk away from those who could care less. It is time to party - I for one am ready and I am done waitin'. Namaste' Dr. Su

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Persuasion

Perhaps I can persuade you to do or be better. I think that is how people see me in my work, as persuasive. I have been told that many times, even my stepfather said I was persuasive as a kid, always getting my way. Not needing to strong arm anyone ever, simply persuade you to try. I like that, it is an art. It allows choice without judgment, it opens options in a positive enticing sort of way. It is radiant energy, flowing a stream of thought outward and making it delicious.

My client yesterday said I was a pleasure to spend time with, and that I had persuaded her to believe she was nearly perfect in every way. SHE WAS TO ME. I told her so, and the time we spent together was productive and she left with an air of optimism. HUH? Isn't that what a doctor should do??? Sharing our knowledge, or experiences to persuade you to do or feel better. HUH? Is that what is going on out there or are you feeling fearful or trapped or doomed? It is time to set a higher mark for those we trust for healing or education. If you are feeling enticed to improve - keep on, if you are feeling doomed or belittled or left out or not worthy, find a new school, a new teacher, a new doctor or a new leader. We are all worthy of love and growth and learning that puts a smile on our face and allows the knowing to do or be better. Start shopping now, they are out there. Let the others go away now.

It is your choice. Good luck and Godspeed, Dr. Su

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Let your inner warmth shine through

The weather outside is amazing - warmer on Christmas then on Halloween, that makes perfect sense to me as we end 2011. We are getting warmer, closer and ready to birth our 2012 with amazing new life. It is heating up! You feel it inside, I do, then I take off my sweater, but what is really happening is that I am letting myself express that inner warmth. Putting warmth and smiles and generosity into your day is how it gets out of you and into our world.

Those who have been sad or alone or left out or even angry will need that heat to melt the walls surrounding their hearts. Some will do the Heart Attack others will do the tears, the shattering or melting does not need to be painful, truly it will bring relief. Healing your heart is where this new world starts over in you. Heart is the home of self, the plans for your life lie within the structure of that chakra. Pounding at it is like the knocking on the door of self, but people fear it. They get drugs or surgery to stop it, when in truth all you need to do is just answer the DOOR!!! It is you knocking.

Anxiety or adrenaline tap at it first, unanswered they BANG at it, people freak when that happens, yet it is the only way the body has to get your attention. It is a good thing. Sit still, breathe and ask to see in the movies that you run in your mind, the story it is trying to tell you. Be quiet and listen and see it, no judgement, no fear, just remember.

Your body is your temple, your vehicle, you earthly companion. It has an agreement with you, albeit temporary. I see abuses of that agreement every single day in my work. No food, crappy food, poison mouths, chemical toxicity, no water, just pop and alcohol and caffeine, the list goes on and on. Uppers and downers are the order of the day running it out of order and out of energy. WOW, then someone will sell you a way out. Big bucks from treating your mess! YOUR MESS. Five things for 2012 - free to you, will help this enormously.

FRESH AIR, PURE CLEAN WATER, UNFILTERED SUNLIGHT, EXERCISE THAT FITS YOUR BLOOD TYPE WHICH IS GENETICS AND DIGESTIBLE, WHOLE, NATURAL, PREFERABLY ORGANIC FOOD, three times a day, starting with BREAKFAST!!!

FINALLY - FINDING SOMETHING EACH DAY TO SMILE AT OR ABOUT OR WITH!!!
If humans freak you out get a pet.

Your turn to step up now, git er' done - you will love the result.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Gap week

One last chance before the 2012 begins. I believe that taking a time out here and allowing the vision of your life to come into focus is prudent. It is imperative to CHOOSE what you want now. It is not random in any way, even not choosing is choosing now. Be specific, embellish, open all the doors and windows of opportunity, look where you have not ever looked before. Judge nothing, allow everything to flow.

Then fall in love with your ideas. Be passionate, be generous, be energetic and be YOURSELF. The ideas of what another wants from you or for you - are none of your business. Focus on the opinion you have of yourself. Are you proud of how you handled the holiday? Did those you love and cherish, feel it from you in every way. Were you grateful for the gifts you received? Were you generous in the gifts you gave?

Get a new notebook and begin to fill it with your inner thoughts and perspectives. One single page per day will do. Listen to your heart and then write it down. Leave it before you read it, maybe later or a week's worth on Sunday. Let the flow from the Higher Self open to you on those pages, take notes, draw pictures, put down all the details. You will give yourself the gift of self and that is who we all have been looking for! Namaste' Dr. Su

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Honor all that is right there in front of your eyes.

I have a vision that constantly searches the horizon for more, scanning and always wanting to move ahead. That got me into trouble in school, reading ahead,running ahead, not paying attention to what was going on in front of me. My brain just works that way.

I am not patient, and not a good patient either. I do not want to give up or give in. I mangled my finger the other day in the car door and my friend said you will go to the doctor for an x-ray - I said I am the doctor and I will go home and fix it myself, with your help. He said if he could have over ruled me he would have, but since he was just visiting here and didn't know where the ER was he just took me home.

It is fine. It is also a great lesson. I know who I am and what I can do, I would have asked for help if I needed it, I know now that I running off and getting someone else to tell me what to do is never going to be my way. I will rely on my own knowing and pray for assistance, that should do it!! It did do it!!

In honor of the Christed beings that move through this world, using Jesus as an example, I will honor this Christmas day by being present and loving all that is right here in front of me. No looking ahead today, just sitting in the day with those I love, who love me back. Laughing and singing and eating good stuff and BEING MY OWN PRESENT TO ME. This is a new way and a new day has dawned - welcome, you are all worthy and loved, it is all good. Happy Brithday Jesus, we are happy to celebrate your birthday today. I love this world just like you taught me to. Dr. Su

Friday, December 23, 2011

As we begin in the light of the 23rd of December

the dark times fade away now. I look forward to the long sunny days ahead. Living in the warmth of the sun is wonderful and my Christmas wish for all is that their sunny days be the best yet ever. Merry Christmas

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Are we waiting to feel special?

I have many friends now who are alone in this lifetime. Living alone, sleeping alone, walking through life alone. They have forgotten what it feels like to be special to someone. It hurts, a lot. Feelings of separation and unworthiness hurt our health, our energy and our outlook. This is very difficult to change when it sinks in so deeply. We do silly things to get attention, we behave in ways we would not normally think are OK. Putting ourself out there so to speak for the world to take pot shots at us, accepting crumbs instead of the cake itself.

What can we do now to remedy this situation? The only way I see out of this is to begin by treating another that special way you want to be treated. Simple. That will create the energy that attracts the same stuff back at you!

Yesterday was my birthday, and so many of my friends and family treated me like gold. Special treats, visits, phone calls and facebook wishes all made my day magical. There was one person that I wanted to be in that mix, I waited all day for that special card or call or invite, nothing came and I went to bed very sad. I forgot about all the good wishes and wonderful people in the light of that one person. How does that happen? I believe it is a lack of worthiness that puts us in that sad place.

So I dreamt. In my dream I felt the love I look for each day. It was young and energetic and fresh and I even thought, oh my, how can I be so lucky!! For me that is the solution, dream of your desire - then put it into this world on paper, in song and believe it with all your heart to be a DREAM COME TRUE. I will give it a go and let you know the result. You are all so so special and worthy, never forget that!!

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Birthday number 54, the end of a cycle 9

I love math, not the kind I sat through in school, the kind the Universe uses to help us along the way. Astrology is huge math, numerology is specific math, piano is one of my favorite maths. I look at each day mathematically. Today is my 54th birthday, a nine day. Meaning that the cycle is ended and I have begun a year now of new beginnings and fresh starts. WOW, to begin fresh at my age is so exciting! Sometimes I hear that youth is wasted on the young, I think that youth should follow us all the days of our lives!

In honor of my youth, my daughter Carly said in her card to me "Mom, you're classy and sassy and still kickin' ass-y". I love that, it is true. I am still youthful and full of life and now that the hard part is over and faith and hope and the love of all has kept me here and upright it's time to celebrate this place and everything about it.

I have stopped looking back, that part is over. I won. In every part of my life I won the battles I came to fight. Only about me. Others still have their own to finish. I stopped the newspaper and the TV and Radio news, since it hurts us with negativity. I cleaned the amalgam from my mouth and body and stopped with the chemicals of drugs and other so called foods. The minerals I put in are in balance as is the food and water. I find the sun every day and the fresh air that fills me with energy. I still play - alot, I sing out loud like I always have and I am currently looking for a dance partner. That should be fun too.

In honor of your and my birthdays, look at your math, astrologically and numerologically, it helps that the Creator is so organized and has put this there to help us. Then celebrate where ever you are at, the present is a GIFT!! Enjoy it I am. Namaste' Dr.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Definition of CRUDE

Raw, natural, unrefined, blunt, careless, tactless, that is the description of humans in their raw form.

It takes a village to raise a child and helping them develop from crude to refined and beautiful is a chore for all of us together to work on. A guy sat in front of me at the Canadian Tenor's concert last night and he was CRUDE. No manners at all, disrupting the enjoyment of the music with words and sounds and inappropriate behavior. I said a prayer to quiet in his spirit and it quieted enough to allow him to stay. His child like behavior was out of control and it caused stress for those around him. Later the woman sitting by him said she was at her wits end and short of being crude herself didn't know what to do. She apologized for him.

That is where this needs to stop now. There is no more time for excuses or excusing, if you want to be crude then go away. Really, just go away now and stay away until you can develop a sense of self that shows consideration and concern for all of us.

No one likes to hear cursing or be cursed at. NO ONE. There is no time left for the inconsistencies of the human who has chosen to remain crude. The 2012 timing of the Earth Calendar shift makes that very clear, so does the Bible, two men will be walking up a hill, then without notice of any kind one will be left behind. That is the ending of the crude raw undisciplined humans in this group. They will begin again at another place and time with those who are just like them.

Please offer encouragement to those who wish to develop themselves into loving and considerate people as ONE, the rest will remain separate and we must move on without them. Sad, but true now. This is the final year, 2012 is the end of the ending and I for one am looking forward to the dawn of the new day here!

Truly caring promotes consideration

There has been so much stress in people's lives that we forget simple consideration and the impact we have on others. If you truly care, then you must always consider what you say and do.

I gave a cookie to the clerk at the hotel I was at on Saturday. I had just baked our favorite family recipe and brought some to my birthday party, she took it into her mouth and it just melted. Later my friend showed up at the front desk to get her key and the clerk said you are with the COOKIE lady, she gave me a meltaway and it was the sweetest thing I have ever tasted!!!

I cared and considered and gave away one of my favorite things, and forever to her, I will be known for the Sweetest thing ever!! Now that's a gift back to myself that I didn't expect, but will cherish forever. I am sure that many people will remember me in their own way, but she will remember me as the deliverer of something very sweet. I will endeavor to do that daily now, knowing that the sweetness in life is the simple showing of consideration and CARING about the impact you have.

Such tiny seemingly insignificant gestures can truly change a person's day or sometimes even their life. Being a conscious person and wanting to stay awake while I am here means caring. Caring about myself first then my family and friends and then the same caring needs to apply to all the people in this world. I will consider that my birthday gift to myself and it could be the best one yet!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

2011 GOOD BYE! Find your focus now.

Wow, if they would have told me in advance that 2011 would be like that I might have said no thanks. Good grief, how much does one have to endure just to be peaceful and healthy and happy around here!?! Honestly, this was the wildest ride ever, I love wild rides - really I do, but come on. At least it will make a good book!

I believe that everyone feels that feeling. Letting it finish out and focusing on the shift occurring now is the way to celebrate the changes that had to come to initiate the shifting of our world.

Occupy and other social reform programming is just getting going, the children I said I was here to support are growing into masterful adults with a vision of Oneness that will change this world quickly.

I'm getting bullied.com is freeing the voices and lives of those who felt fearful or trapped here.

Sustainability moving to the front of people's minds.

Peace instead of war - paramount.

The end of medical experimenting on humans and animals - NOW. No more vaccination or other drug experiments especially on our children who suffer horribly and die from these projects.

No more amalgam (mercury) fillings and flouride making us sick and stupid.

This is a good start and many are already there. Their health is improving daily as will their strength and immune fuction. The best comments I get on my work are the ones that say they have never ever felt as good as they do now!

The restoration of the Earth and her amazing capacity to heal and nourish us, my favorite cause,is now getting the support it needs. No more raping of our planet, energy is free, let's get it handled now. Let's feed our families with natural organic healthy food, no more GMO garbage or chemically treated or irradiated food.

Spirituality is a gift from the Creative Source and it is free and comes from within, no need to buy absolution or forgiveness from any church. You are a child of the king/queen, we all are, noone is above you. Give to the charity of your choice not one because you are told to.

You are finally free to be you with no prejudicial influences bothering you. Any race, persuasion or expression honored.

Let's celebrate the good stuff! Forget about everything else and FOCUS on who you are to be now and what you are going to do in this new world.

Have a birthday!! Be reborn to your life, your relationships, your career, and then recreate your reality with new responsibilities. It is your choice, happy birthday to me and YOU TOO. Dr. Su

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Without forgiveness there is still KARMA!

What goes around comes around times 1000 now. Whap! In the BACK of the head.

Mercy extended through the act of forgiving the unforgivable is the only way to clear your slate. So thinking about your life and your choices, have you ever taken something that doesn't belong to you? Have you lied or cheated, thinking you got away with it? Have you pretended to be someone or something you are not? Making excuses for bad behavior or simply running when it gets honest and hot is no longer going to work here.

We have been watched forever. Every single thing said, done or even thought is known. Makes you think about what you have done doesn't it? Is illness karmic? Is bankruptcy karmic? Is jail or aloneness karmic?? Choices always have consequences, always, sooner or later, but always.

Start with an accounting of self. Ask for forgiveness from self and others effected. Put it up in the cross of space and time and light it on fire in the spirit of rebirth, karma does not need to whap you. Be at peace with the knowing of everything and the accountability for that and you will truly find peace. You are amazing remember that.

Feel only for the peace you seek and allow the others to find their own way

I have met a lot of worriers lately. All I have to say is simply that worrying does not one bit of good ever! Faith in the big picture, even when you are too close to see it, is how I never worry, ever.

I believe. Period. It is all good. Period. It will all work together for the highest good of all. Period. Hopelessly hopeful is how I am described.

I do that in health, finances, relationships and any thing else out there that might potentially offer the opportunity to worry.

Let go of what you are worrying about, really just let go. When the Universe closes a door once and for all, lots of windows simply fly open!!!

If it bugs you, release it, sell it, give it away, walk away or just say no thanks not interested. That is how I handle worry, no thanks, not interested! There is so much to celebrate, my birthday, my family, my work and my blessings - not to mention Christmas and 2012!! WOW, How lucky can we get????? I don't know but I am sure ready to find out! Namaste' Dr. Su

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Truth and Justice - the American Dream

Do things seem just to you lately? Is there fair and honest any more. I know now that there truly is - everyone and everything are being exposed for who and how they really are. Look and see, those bullies you thought were so tough - not so tough now as they get sucked down the drain of their own deceit.

Angels are everywhere and when you ask they assist you in any way they can. My friends are also angels to me, asking for help when I need it is not easy for me, I truly want to do it all myself, I have been like that my whole life. Now I realize that we are not ever alone and friends are there to be involved with all the aspects of your life easy or challenging.

I was married once to a thief, a real horsetrader type. He thought he could fool the people he sold horses and cattle to by not telling the whole truth. I didn't know that till after the marriage had begin, but when I witnessed it first hand I realized I too had been horse traded. What you saw was certainly not what you got. I told him if he continued to cheat that I would expose him to his next buyer, oh boy did that cause a ruckuss!!! He threatened me after that and said my silence was the only acceptable route if I did not want to get hurt. BULLY!! I sent him away fast but still needed to expose his misdeeds, as is my calling here, shining the light so to speak.

I am doing that now, telling the truth about his choices and how he manipulates those around him. Sad but true, that we have to clean up our own messes and this is one of mine. Luckily though in the process of healing I have become good friends with his family and ex wife - funny how life works and his dear friend is also helping me in so many ways with my ranch.

Stay the course, do not quit till all the truth has been told, there is justice here for those who do not give in. I proved that in court last month and there is a little more proving yet to do. Expose everything into the Light, ask for help and believe - that is how your dreams become reality. Mine are!!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Look within

My friend reminded me of my song, he said you have always had a song, singing it where ever you could, not really caring who heard, just needing to sing. I talk the same way. That used to cause trouble for me, my truth, you see, is extra-ordinary. Super delicious and animated. I have had 4 eclipses in my sign this year, changing me once again. Forgetting my song is not an option, not speaking my truth is not an option either.

Looking within and reading the underlying energy of the soul is where we should all look now. Skipping the details of the day to day, and the relationships and hardships that occur in that reality and super focusing on the authentic self is the best place to start.

I was delivered on Dec. 20 in 1957 on a snowflake in the 2:19 hour of the morning in Hudson, Wisconsin. That is where my story begins. I love this world, the animals, the kids and nature herself are my favorites. Laughing, running and jumping for joy, or riding a pair of skis or a magnificent horse the proper order of the day!! I know healthy is the only way to live and that is why I practice Naturopathy. I know happy is the only way to live too and that is why I practice Faith, Hope and Love. I was born under the Spica Star, so was Jesus. I love that parallel. Although his life here was challenging it resulted in Ascension and Glory, so that is something to tell stories about. The other stuff needs to be forgotten and left to the past.

In beginning again fresh and new, find your authentic self first, check your natal chart and match it in comparison to others in your life, any good astrologer can do that for you. I can. Twenty five bucks for a chart of either kind. Makes a super gift for someone in transition, knowing the truth about your inner workings helps a lot.
Then use your real self, the one you know the best but may have forgotten and begin again. Coaching helps, life or health or fitness or career, what ever you need, find a coach to cheer you on and keep you moving forward. We use horses to mirror to us - us, and use their gift in coaching, it is extra-ordinary. Set up a session with me and see how you like it!!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

You really are so OK.

As we shift now and move into the position that we have dreamed of, we must know that we are really OK.

People are pinging around like popcorn, trying to get their bearings. Where do I belong, with whom.

Find the quiet place in your heart and listen and feel it into reality.

Success, health, happiness, youth, passion and anything else you desire, put it down on paper and into your field of energy. You are creating your reality at a pace you have never been able to access before. Do not let others sway you from your vision, focus, hunker down and have faith. Be solid in your dreams. Even if you are little wobbley, do not give in and tip over - hold tight and be strong. Money is an extention of you and your self worth, the value you carry for YOU will extend outward into your life and world. Be valuable!!!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Put out there what it is you wish to receive

Many of you and me too, have waited for that knight in shining armor, savior, bail out, hand out, leg up, etc.,for any or all of those things. To receive these you must first endeavor to put them out there.

What you do and say will be added back unto you times 1000. How does that work? It is the echo of your soul. You are constantly sending messages into the abyss with noise and fervor, thoughts, words and deeds, and then when it comes back around, you feel the smack of it, right in the back of your head.

Are you then surprised by what is delivered????

Are you the one who bails out or legs up another, it can be done in so many forms. A kind word, a helpful gesture, a respectful nod or even an anonymous gift are all of those things we seek. Paying it forward is real, sending out messages of hope and support are real. Giving the day the love it deserves especially to those the most challenged and the most challenging.

Many years ago I loved to party, I did it to be a part of something. One day a woman said to me "I can always tell when you are a little tipsy, because you tell everyone how much they mean to you and how much you love them". WOW, I didn't even notice that anyone was noticing. To hear those words made me smile and warmed my heart. What I was putting out there, came back to me as she hugged me and smiled and said "I just love you".

GOLD, that was gold to me and a lesson I never forgot. I try to tell those in my life that I value them, and find one good thing to say about their work or their look or their presence. In return I get valued. Now that is worth a million bucks isn't it???

Monday, December 5, 2011

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http://www.razoo.com/orders/share The American people need to consider themselves as one people. Look around and see who is really your brother and your sister and then ask yourself, what can you do to restore the Oneness of the People, this is what is needed for our recovery in every way. It begins within.

Namaste' Dr. Su

Let it be - for now anyway

There is not one thing you can do now to impose your will upon another and do anything good for that person. We are done being imposed upon and it is interesting to watch people handle themselves. Our society would have you spend your resources on anyone else but yourself, it is a strange phenomenon. First they give you advise then they expect you to pay for it, then they charge you extra for thing the advice suggests and all along you were feeling that that was not really what you needed or wanted. I think the whole Wall Street thing is all about that. Give me your money now, hurry and WHOOSH it is gone.

Learn to say, I think I will just let it be for awhile, I will let you know. Sometimes we need the alone time to really feel what is right for us, not the staring eyes and open hands of someone else making promise after promise.

If you are offered a shot, a drug, a job or an idea that seems too good to be true, Let It Be. Go home and do the research first, put yourself first and think about how it will effect you and your life - first. Not the other person. YOU _ YOU _ YOU.

Like the song says - when I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, LET IT BE.

To heal you must let the body be, it knows how to heal itself, when you need to heal try the same trick, just let it be for a bit. Taking time out during the holidays to just be with your own thoughts and ideas will help everyone, because taking care of yourself is always the first and best choice ever. It is those people who will ultimately change the face of this world those who have learned to take care of themselves.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Appreciate yourself.

Gratitude is sorely missing around here these days. Saying thank you is an empty echo of some forgotten set of manners, really not meaning thank you at all, just doing the lip service.

I wait for the smile and gesture of sincere thanks and continue to wait and wait. People feel entitled these days and gratitude does not go with that. Have you thought why that happens?

I teach about having a body and how grateful the body is to a happy indwelling spirit that loves their body and takes good care of it. Happy spirits have happy healthy energetic bodies. Those who are sick or injured have bodies who are disappointed with the care they are receiving from the indwelling spirit.

You are responsible for the body the Earthmother provides you for your time here. Feeding it nourishing healthy energizing food regularly is a primary and primal need of that body, Pop, alcohol, garbage food, tobacco just make it scared and worried and eventually your body will buck you off. But not until it has warned you many times. Anxiety, sleeplessness and overweight are common warnings I see all the time. Pain is the other one. The body will only send a pain message to an indweller who has missed all the other signs. Pain is the beginning of the end of what could have been a beautiful relationship. When a person feels pain they then share that with others, no one needs to know your pain, it is your creation by the choices you have made. Clean up your act and body will heal itself, that is the design.

The cross showed pain and then, the resurrection showed life unending. Pick one, you can not have them both at the same time. Get down off the cross and let the resurrection of your body, your life and your indwelling spirit begin for real in light, love and laughter!! A free will choice to embrace a divine message!! Namaste' Dr. Su

Friday, December 2, 2011

Waiting for someone to give you the go ahead????

Our world population has waited for, paid for and knuckled under to the opinions of others for a very long time. We were not taught to count on our own knowing, our own feelings and our own counsel. Meditation was not taught by any church I attended. It seemed as though I sat through lecture after lecture on the subject of how wrong and bad we were and how we needed them to save us in some way. Abuses piled up under the cover of supposed power, self proclaimed salvation distributors. Putting their opinion above ours and insisting that we all buy into it.

I couldn't do it. After many beatings at home and time spent with the principal at school I just gave up and partied. Who could measure up anyway??? It never counted that what I felt was right for me or certainly it was never good enough for them. My ex husband said my new way of health care and mysticism had to stop and ganged up on me with supposed friends and family. When they had sufficiently opinioned me to death they partied on as if they victorious. I remember thinking at that very moment I would not ever be persecuted again, enough was enough.

After the drama I made my escape, out from under the fears and opinions of those who didn't care about what I wanted only what they wanted. I had daughters to take care of and that was all that mattered. I even put myself second to them. I know now that is not how to parent in balance, but it was the best I could do at the time.

Years later there is still the opinions of those who tried to control me. Now I simply have no relationship to them or those thoughts any longer. They are still around but what they do and say only hurts them, not me. When I see them I forgive them their fears and pray for their safe passage to where ever it is they choose to go.

Peace and freedom come from within. Go there. Look inside your own heart and be still. It is a wonderful magical place and it is where all of you originate from. There are no secrets there, no lies and nothing wrong. It is the blueprint keeper of who and how you are and will reveal to you the mysteries you seek. It is not in the opinions of others.